I met my younger self in a cafe today
She ordered pain au chocolat and iced latte. I ordered iced matcha coconut.
She was 30 minutes late. I was 10 minutes late.
She brought her boxing gloves with her. I was wearing a pair of cute pilates socks.
She told me life in the US was fun but she thought about going back to Indonesia all the time. I told her I live in Indonesia now and found my home.
She was innocent and pure. I told her life isn't always filled with good people. She'll be betrayed by people she trusted the most but she'll learn from those mistakes.
She was devastated about finding love cause she lost herself while falling in love for the very first time. I told her one day she'll find herself again and find someone who will accept her for who she is.
She said she wasn't too close to our parents. She called them once a week. I told her I feel closer than ever to our parents now. I call them several times a day every single day. She was shocked when I told her I still live with our parents and I only have a few months left until I move out from their house.
She said she wanted to move to Jakarta to find new friends and a boyfriend. I told her our future partner is someone from our hometown. She couldn't believe when I said that cause that's the last thing she ever wanted, to date someone from her childhood home.
She said she wanted to enjoy her 20s exploring life and marry when she's ready. I told her I keep those words until now and that's the best decision ever. I am getting married this year when I turn 28.
She asked me what's the best advice for her. I said "At the end of the day, you don't only have yourself. You have your family, close friends and fiancé who love you so much. You can always depend on them for anything. You don't always have to be strong. Sometimes it's okay to not be okay."
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